what to eat

What does a lactose intolerant diabetic with heart disease, a wheat allergy and 2 missing teeth eat? Yep, that's the question of the day. I've put out an APB on my collar bones, because I know that much of this disgusting situation is a direct result of my extra weight. I often wonder where rock bottom is for my alcoholic nephew... cause it's not in jail. But now I have to ask myself the same thing. When will I be at the place where I'd rather live than eat? What about my life or body chemistry makes me seek solace in food? I could blame my parents, that's always fun, after all they raised 2 overweight people and an anorexic. I suspect it's the same disease in a different manifestation. I could blame my metabolism, but I've lost this weight 4 or 5 times in my life. I know that the only real solution is going to be when I take responsibility for my own health. So what does that look like? What does that feel like? What will I substitute emotionally for food? I guess I can adopt the old AA mantra... one day at a time. So day 1 is I will write about my feelings, food and progress toward health. God help me, if this doesn't work I'm going to gain 50 pounds so I can have that surgery... I think that would be easier.